To live fully

I'm here to live fully.

To be here.

Even when my mind pulls me into fear.

Even when my body shakes.

I choose to stay awake.

To this mystery.

To this beauty.

To the connection that's available, right here, around and within me.

I'm here to live fully.

Even writing these words, I tear up.

Because I know a part of me is scared as fuck to actually live.

To let myself experience the fullness of this human life.

Notice I didn't say the highs?

No.

I'm here to go deep.

Into the ever-changing landscape of my waters.

Into my soul's fire.

Into the intelligence of my body.

Into the steadiness of my heart.

Into the layers of conditioning that has torn me apart. 

I’m here to go deep.

And every time I meet myself there, something shifts.

Even if it's only the slightest drift.

Slowly...

I'm finding my way back on my feet.

Steadier.

Softer.

So I choose to rise each morning and trust.

Even when every part of me wants to protect my heart.

I choose to stay open.

To let life reveal the places where love has never been allowed to stay.

Where I felt like prey 

Just to realize that I too had a part to play…

What I accepted so blindly. 

Lights on, hats off, eye wide open.

Now She sees clearly.

This is my devotion.

To truth.

To authenticity.

To intimacy.

To living fully.

If this piece resonated with something alive in you, know that there are deeper spaces to explore.

Through private mentorship, The Hearth online community, retreats, and seasonal journeys, I hold spaces for women and men remembering their truth and returning to their authentic Self.

You’re welcome to continue exploring my website to learn more or reach out here: sophia@alkimiahealingarts.ca